I’ve been trying to let go of this “thing” now for the past month or so after realizing it was pointless to hang on to what apparently no longer existed. However, I kept hanging on to this “thing” while at the same time trying to let it go. It’s been a complete emotional tug of war that has kept me standing in the same spot over and over again.
Almost every day I would imagine myself walking to the cliff’s edge overlooking the ocean, face into the wind and there I would tell myself to throw this “thing” over the edge. But every time I imagined this, my fist was tight and my hand wouldn’t open. I simply never could let it go.
And so I continued to hold on tightly to this “thing”.
Last night I walked to the cliff’s edge yet again, face into the wind as usual…and took a long deep breath. And to my surprise gone was the tight fist that always kept my hand closed. My hand was open and I was finally able to let go of that “thing”. I didn’t even have to throw it because the universe took care of that for me once it knew I was ready to let go. The wind simply picked it up gently right out of my opened hand and carried it back and beyond me where I stood. It did that so I wouldn’t have to see it anymore or be distracted by it while I stood there and marveled at the beauty and healing powers of the ocean. I lingered for a while as I continued looking forward.
And do you want to know what happened after that?
The breeze felt amazing on my face!
I am,
The Urban Mountaineer